Streamer with DID
Mental health advocate
gamer ~ artist ~ dancer
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Dissociative Identity Disorder
Dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a mental health condition where you have two or more separate personalities that control your behavior at different times. When personalities switch, you’ll have gaps in your memory. DID is caused by living through trauma.
People with dissociative identity disorder may experience several different personalities, usually referred to as alters. Each identity may have different behaviors, memories, thought patterns or expressions. The identities might have different ethnicities and ways of interacting with their environments.
These personalities may control your behavior at different times. Memories may not transfer from one identity to another, which can cause amnesia (gaps in memory). The presence of amnesia is often an important symptom that raises concern for the diagnosis.
DID interferes with your ability to function in your day to day. It can impact your relationships with others and performance at school or work. It is one of several dissociative disorders that affect your ability to connect with reality.
Symptoms/Behaviors
Having at least two identities (personality states). These affect your behavior, memory, self-perception and ways of thinking.
Amnesia or gaps in memory regarding daily activities, personal information and traumatic events.
Detachment from reality, your emotions and your sense of self.
Confusion from what others may tell you about your behavior.
Stress of not being in control.
Misplacing items, forgetting plans/conversations, "blacking out" and finding yourself in another location.
How common is D.I.D.?
DID isn’t common. One small U.S. study found that DID affects an estimated 1.5% of people.Current estimates on how common this condition is may vary based on new diagnostic criteria introduced in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, 5th Edition (DSM-5).
Can someone have D.I.D. without knowing?
Yes, it’s possible that someone can have DID without knowing. While some people are aware of their identities, many people don’t know when a new identity takes over. When a new identity steps in, you may not remember some events because another personality experienced them. This causes gaps in memory, called amnesia.
What causes D.I.D.?
Stressful experiences
Trauma
Physical or sexual abuse
Neglect
Multiple medical procedures during childhood
War or terrorism
These events typically happen during childhood. DID is a way for you to distance or detach yourself from the trauma.Symptoms may trigger (happen suddenly) after:Removing yourself from a stressful or traumatic environment
Close relatives or your children reaching the age at which you experienced trauma
A recent traumatic or stressful experience (like a vehicle accident)
An abuser passing away or experiencing a life-threatening illness
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More than 70% of people diagnosed with DID attempt suicide or practice self-injury behaviors.If you’re thinking about hurting yourself, call or text 988, the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.). You don’t have to be in a crisis to dial 988. Someone is available to talk, no matter your situation, so you can feel better in your time of need.
It doesn’t feel like you’re “you” with DID. This can look and feel different for each person who experiences it. If something doesn’t feel right or your experiences and memories aren’t lining up, reach out to a healthcare provider for an evaluation.
Our personal experience
We had a mess of a childhood. My mother is my bestfriend and I love her to death, but my biological father and step father after him were both incredibly abusive.
My formative years are all a blur to me, and I have little to no solid memories. Sometimes things will hit me out of nowhere, and it is NOT pleasant.
When I was 15 I had an episode where I blacked out, and woke up in the road just in time to jump out of traffic. After telling my mom, I was rushed to the ER and admitted to a mental hospital for 5 days.
The therapist there told me that I "probably had Multiple Personality Disorder" but that it was not a recognized disorder that could be diagnosed and treated.
As a teenager, I thought she was full of shit, and dismissed her "diagnosis". From 15-18 my life was a mess. I quit jobs left and right, went through relationships and friendships like crazy, never fully understanding WHY they ended or what went wrong.
I was not a nice person. I was rude to my friends, I was forgetful, I was a mess. I decided to go back to therapy, and that's when I received an official D.I.D. diagnosis.
I was receptive to it because everything I was going through was undeniable. Since then I have made it a point to unlearn my bad habits, treat people around me with the respect they deserve, make and maintain firm boundaries, and learn more about my mind and the people who live inside of it so we can all live in harmony together.
A lot of the information I have about my alters comes from outside sources (friends, parents, partner) because I am not always 100% cognizant of who comes out and what is happening.
I have over 150+ distinct personalities and often joke that I have my own pokedex. Only 5 of them stream with me, hence the name HEX (6).
Despite working to become more mentally sound and stable, this disorder still greatly impacts my life. When I make friends I have to warn them that I am overly forgetful of plans and specifics, and I have to fight to maintain a 9-5 job on a daily basis.
Not all disabilities are visible, but they are all valid. No matter what challenges I face, I know only I am responsible for taking care of me, and I will fight every day I'm alive to make sure me and everyone in my head are comfortable.
Streaming has been such a beautiful creative outlet for all of us, and I can't thank you all enough for sharing it with us.
~Hex n' Friends
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